The last several years have been such an amazing journey and I wish I had written down all that God has done in and through my life. However, slowly over the last year, I have managed to drift from the path that God had set out before me. Or maybe I was supposed to take this detour...
A couple months ago, I heard the song "The Motions" by Matthew West and it re-ignited the spark that I thought had long been snuffed out by daily life. The lyrics start, "This might hurt. It's not safe. But I know that I've gotta make a change. I don't care if I break, at least I'll be feeling something. because 'just okay' is not enough. Help me fight through the nothingness of life. I don't want to go through the motions. I don't want to go one more day without Your all-consuming passion inside of me. I don't want to spend my whole life asking, 'What if I had given everything instead of going through the motions?'" I know exactly when the slow fade happened, I can almost pin-point the exact moment my heart turned away - not from God, but from the path. It was in May, the end of May 2010 actually. It came at the end of a year of great loss and amazing growth in Christ. It was when things started to "wind down" and life went "back to normal" and I didn't need God the way I had in the year prior.
Over the next few blogs, I will give more insight into the events that occurred, but for now I want to focus in on the purpose of this blog. "No regrets, not this time. I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind. Let Your love make me whole. I think I am finally feeling something." are the next few verses of the song and that is where I want to go - I am going to let it all out, holding nothing back, living completely surrendered in Christ, my Savior!
How do we do that? Live surrenedered? Well, for starters, we trust God. There is no need to fear an unknown future to a God who has known us even before we were born. Stay tuned... God is working!!
Yay!!!
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