I came with nothing left inside -
I tried too long to hide, I was full of pride and lust and I lied - not like the bride of Christ should be…
I was desperate, lonely, wanting something more.
I gave everything just to get something and settled for anything… but had nothing.
Broken and bruised, I was so confused – used and led astray by the way that leads away from the straight path.
I couldn’t last another day this way… Afraid for my life, full of strife and SO angry.
I beat against the walls of my mind, trying to find a light to turn on and show me the way, but in darkness, I stayed…
This is the price I must pay for my blatant disregard…. GOD, help me now, I don’t know how to bow down…
Yet I cower beneath this tower of confusion and pain… blame… shame – I HATE THE WAY I FEEL TODAY!!!
But… it is no different than any other day…
As I lay my head down for the night, the fight begins against the height of my pride, but try as I might, I cannot see the light because of the fright inside, hiding the truth.
Empty, I am so lost. And I don’t want to go on this way.
But it is the ONLY way I know so…
I go through the motions, concealing my emotions…
I fall deeper into the pit of despair as I struggle for air, wrestling against the bear within.
Do I dare expose myself to the unfair judgment of those who don’t REALLY care????
Who am I trying to please anyway?
Lost and alone, I fight against the wind – trying to defend what little pride I have left.
But it is hopeless at best because I am NOTHING, NO ONE…. just a piece of dust, full of lust for what this world
has to offer.
I have tasted it all, yet hungered for more and thirsted… for something… to satisfy.
I writhe in pain, full of disdain for what I became and I want to blame.
But the only name that came to mind was MINE!!!!!!!!
Oh GOD!!! How can I go on?!?!
I fall on my knees, begging… please, LORD, don’t leave me this way… I scratch against the inside of my mind, desperate to claw my way out… only digging myself deeper into the pit, unaware of the answer to my prayer hanging before me…
My face deep in the mire, I writhe in pain, caught up in the blame game when……….
I feel a rush of warmth cascade over my body.
With the last bit of strength, I lift up my head to see what is pouring down on me and I cannot believe the sight!
I see the answer right in front of me.
Upon a tree, my personified iniquity.
I am frozen.
Blood spilling from His body, washing over me, cleansing me white?
What is this I feel? Is it real?
A man whose name I am so unworthy to say – so perfect in EVERY way… by MY hands He was slain – for the sin of my pride, the One I turned away, cursed His name and denied in shame!
But He loved me anyway?
How can it be that He would see something worthy in me????? I do NOT deserve this gift He is giving.
But, I cannot deny that it makes life worth living!!!
I drink the wine of His blood, taste the bread of His body and for the FIRST TIME, I am satisfied….
I do NOT deserve this forgiveness, but it is ENDLESS – covering my EVERY transgression
So I progress on… to a place I never knew existed.
I hung Him on that cross with my selfishness and with His selflessness, He took MY place.
How can I ever face what I have done?
Guilt floods my mind as I open my eyes and realize
It had to be – it was the ONLY way it COULD be to set me free from my iniquity –
Else, I’d burn eternally.
I bow down before my King, I give Him EVERYTHING
ALL OF ME – the good, bad and even the wretched ugly.
And in turn, He sets me free, cleanses my eyes that I might see…
Blind once, NOW I SEE
Dead before, now I am FREE!!!
Free from death, with my every breath, I’ll praise His name, Christ Jesus came.
The chains fall away and no more am I captive!!
Freedom was not free –
I was bought with a price.
The ULTIMATE sacrifice.
The BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!!
I tried too long to hide, I was full of pride and lust and I lied - not like the bride of Christ should be…
I was desperate, lonely, wanting something more.
I gave everything just to get something and settled for anything… but had nothing.
Broken and bruised, I was so confused – used and led astray by the way that leads away from the straight path.
I couldn’t last another day this way… Afraid for my life, full of strife and SO angry.
I beat against the walls of my mind, trying to find a light to turn on and show me the way, but in darkness, I stayed…
This is the price I must pay for my blatant disregard…. GOD, help me now, I don’t know how to bow down…
Yet I cower beneath this tower of confusion and pain… blame… shame – I HATE THE WAY I FEEL TODAY!!!
But… it is no different than any other day…
As I lay my head down for the night, the fight begins against the height of my pride, but try as I might, I cannot see the light because of the fright inside, hiding the truth.
Empty, I am so lost. And I don’t want to go on this way.
But it is the ONLY way I know so…
I go through the motions, concealing my emotions…
I fall deeper into the pit of despair as I struggle for air, wrestling against the bear within.
Do I dare expose myself to the unfair judgment of those who don’t REALLY care????
Who am I trying to please anyway?
Lost and alone, I fight against the wind – trying to defend what little pride I have left.
But it is hopeless at best because I am NOTHING, NO ONE…. just a piece of dust, full of lust for what this world
has to offer.
I have tasted it all, yet hungered for more and thirsted… for something… to satisfy.
I writhe in pain, full of disdain for what I became and I want to blame.
But the only name that came to mind was MINE!!!!!!!!
Oh GOD!!! How can I go on?!?!
I fall on my knees, begging… please, LORD, don’t leave me this way… I scratch against the inside of my mind, desperate to claw my way out… only digging myself deeper into the pit, unaware of the answer to my prayer hanging before me…
My face deep in the mire, I writhe in pain, caught up in the blame game when……….
I feel a rush of warmth cascade over my body.
With the last bit of strength, I lift up my head to see what is pouring down on me and I cannot believe the sight!
I see the answer right in front of me.
Upon a tree, my personified iniquity.
I am frozen.
Blood spilling from His body, washing over me, cleansing me white?
What is this I feel? Is it real?
A man whose name I am so unworthy to say – so perfect in EVERY way… by MY hands He was slain – for the sin of my pride, the One I turned away, cursed His name and denied in shame!
But He loved me anyway?
How can it be that He would see something worthy in me????? I do NOT deserve this gift He is giving.
But, I cannot deny that it makes life worth living!!!
I drink the wine of His blood, taste the bread of His body and for the FIRST TIME, I am satisfied….
I do NOT deserve this forgiveness, but it is ENDLESS – covering my EVERY transgression
So I progress on… to a place I never knew existed.
I hung Him on that cross with my selfishness and with His selflessness, He took MY place.
How can I ever face what I have done?
Guilt floods my mind as I open my eyes and realize
It had to be – it was the ONLY way it COULD be to set me free from my iniquity –
Else, I’d burn eternally.
I bow down before my King, I give Him EVERYTHING
ALL OF ME – the good, bad and even the wretched ugly.
And in turn, He sets me free, cleanses my eyes that I might see…
Blind once, NOW I SEE
Dead before, now I am FREE!!!
Free from death, with my every breath, I’ll praise His name, Christ Jesus came.
The chains fall away and no more am I captive!!
Freedom was not free –
I was bought with a price.
The ULTIMATE sacrifice.
The BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!!
Powerful!
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